It seems like its been a fucking time for more than just me, so doing another check-in thread to see how yall are holding up. Especially since its been a LONG time since ive done one of these.
Got something you wanna vent about? Wanna share something cool? Nows the time!
Love you all 
For my own part - back from tour. The band made money, but I am broke. Fortunately, starting my first job in 2 years on Monday, and whats more, ITS FUCKING COOL! Finally out of the tech field, and working thru Americorps to help with a local anti-homelessness organization. Im gonna be doing back end stuff interfacing with other local orgs, but its still a job im happy to have and can be personally proud of rather than working with stupid bullshit SAAS stuff. Met a hexbear on tour and had a great time with them, and after 3 floods in a week, my partner and I are moved into a new apartment and finishing unpacking. This time were on the 4th floor! Nice building, no complaints, place is modern looking and very clean, it just feels surreal after everything that brought us here.
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It feels a little like being in a different reality right now, media bubble, cut loose from everything.
On problems like Palestine I started to view the world differently: There is outrage about this of course, because of the suffering right now. But this issue is way older than 2023, and before that the issue was not mainstream to talk about at all.
I do not think this is good.
Continuing to be tired of the job hunt
This year has been yet another pile of dog shit. Our finances are on a knifes edge and if I can’t get full time work we will have to move in with in-laws. Thank god we have that option, but living with my MAGA in-laws isn’t the most ideal…
However, I am currently training and getting certs to be in the water industry - hoping to be a wastewater plant operator but I’ll take whatever I can get, wouldn’t even mind just being a meter reader or utility worker to start. It feels like a good stable long term career path if I can get my foot in the door. Just taking classes and being with other people in a community college setting has been great for my mental health
That last bit sounds rad, hope you end up where you want to be!
Today marks the 3 month anniversary of me actually going to the gym six days a week and making an effort to actually be in shape instead of just really good at punching
My legs are tired, I’m sweaty as fuck and I have never felt better
Hell yeah happy to hear it! Congrats!
Thanks!
Happy to hear tour went well. Stoked that the universe aligned for you to come back to a job that doesn’t sound entirely soul sucking. Sorry to hear about all the flooding tho, but glad there is a resolution finally.
As for me, I found out my partner has Lupus…
After years of joint pain and fatigue with no real explanation besides early RA with no real indicators, we finally got a positive ANA test and did a second round of tests to confirm. I’m still processing it right now, but the initial reaction is dread followed by a bit of relief that we know what is happening and have a path forward. Then I go right back to dread because the treatment is immunosuppressants which in this society means we need to become bigger hermits than we already are.
It’s depressing as fuck, but there is a glimmer of light in the tunnel. I won’t say at the end of the tunnel because I don’t foresee an end to a chronic illness with no cure. Alas, we have a path forward and hopes of something that will alleviate/lessen symptoms and enable a better quality of life in our day to day.
2025 can suck my ass tho.
Oh fuck, sending love. Hope youre able to find something that works!
Thanks comrade. One day at a time!
Rather warm. It is laundry day so my jeans are in the wash, leaving me with wool pants in 80 degree (burger) weather.
Get some lemonade!
You read my mind an hour ago! Now I don’t know – more super-sweet lemonade, a jitter-inducing fourth coffee or start the day-drinking before 2? Wish I were somewhere where potable water just came out of the faucet.
I cant drink so enjoy some lemonade with booze for me!
Congrats on the tour and the job!
Personally I’m hitting that mid 30s realization that I don’t really have many friends anymore and the ones I do have I’m not super close with entirely by my own actions/inactions. I’m not torn up about it, it’s just something I need to work on as a person I guess.
Same age, same boat. Ive got like 2 people in this city, and one of them is a local hexbear. That’s really it. Its…it is what it is. Sometimes it gets me down, sometimes ive found my peace with it.
It does really make me appreciate my friends I do have and go through the effort of keeping in touch, that’s really the hard part
Yeah, I feel you. I kinda intentionally dropped my oldest friend not too long ago. There are more reasons why, but the last straw was him getting married after moving back to his childhood home, in the suburbs of my city, and not inviting me (I saw pics of other friends there). I didnt hear a single thing about it from him.
lmao that’s super similar to what happened to me! I’m not sweating about it though because a mutual friend told me he’s becoming a full on chud
my partner filed for divorce. i’m still jobless, now I’m couch surfin’. anxiety is… down, surprisingly. i think maybe i was in an unhealthy relationship, i think maybe i knew this was coming, and i’m extremely lucky for the people around me who think better of me than i do… giving me leave to shed some nasty brainworms i got whilst co-depend’n.
cw: ideation
haven’t seriously thought of offin myself in almost 2 months, coinciding with startin to jog. i hate running a lot but i respond very well to EOOD apparently. so if running =
ideationthen imma run like forrest! get fucked “kill yourself” voice ahahahahaha (my hips hurt)!Sending love, hope things calm down
Would cycling or swimming do the same? As someone whose agriculture/warehouse work for a decade is catching up to me, I want everyone to treat their joints like the precious gifts they are lol
i used to swim, (prefer it) and long ago i biked a bunch but… i don’t have access to either right now, so jogging it is.
i’m being (hopefully) smart about my joints, scaling up the jog slowly and doing a program of post-run stretching that seems to be keeping my legs ok so far. in fact the hip pain in talking about is from some deep-ass stretches i just finished, it’s a good(ish) pain.
Thank you for your concern friend! I’ll try to stay careful.
OK you know what you’re doing! (Just dont forget some pre-run stretching) And actually practice it lol. Hell yeah keep up the good works! Hell world seems a little less hellish when you feel like if it comes down to it you could outrun a cop lmao
Terrible. Trump has started his persecute trans people focus, seasonal depression is kicking in, some snitchass neighbor complained about our lilacs bush so now the city is making us cut it way back in summer (technically), which is the wrong time to cut it, and I got all excited to play Hollow Knight only to find out it sucks so I don’t even have good escapism to run to rn.
Also Israel still exists. I had a dream last night I was in Gaza getting shot at by the IDF and woke up mad.
Sending love, hope things look up soon
Took the dog for a walk. Neighbors were all super friendly and the sun was out today. Takin a hot bath now.
Went back to playing UFO50 and almost golded Campanella. I think I got it next run
Whats ufo50?
It’s an anthology-sryle game of a fictional developer’s catalog of 8-bit era games, made by the spelunky and downwell devs, and maybe a couple others. 50 games, almost all of them pretty good to great. It’s got a bit of everything, with puzzle games, platformers, shooters, strategy, etc.
Campanella in particular is an etc. You fly a little saucer around using one button to thrust and the other to slash, and navigate little obstacle courses. It’s one of my favorites due to the controls just being fun
Oh hell yeah sounds fun!
I had two job interviews and did great at both of them! I really think I should have a job in the next few days
Fingers crossed for ya! Really hope you get it, I know how hard shit has been. Hopefully the stuff from walgreens has been helpful
It has been, I really appreciate it! It’s been really nice not using ancient razors to shave and having hair ties that actually work
Glad to hear!
So bad honestly. My cat had surgery Tuesday and did fine. And then Thursday decided she was gonna stop eating. She’s doing well now but just still refuses to eat. If cats don’t eat for 36-48 hours they basically die from liver failure and we’re past that 36 hours now. At the vet waiting but just so fucking over this shit. Trying to do right by her and now the surgery is killing her. In absolute shambles right now
Sending love, and hope she pulls through
Been better, but been way worse
Anything in particular going on?
Dad’s dying, and making the process of dealing with that as excruciating as possible.
Fuck, sorry to hear that. Hope you find peace soon
I had that three years ago, im sorry. Its very hard.
Been very stressed. Lotta life stuff going on, plus my job and goals take a lot of work to keep up with. Made a big ol batch of refried beans all the way from dried pintos, though, so I have a ton of bean burritos to make! Very lovely comfort food for me, plus I have Silksong and my partner. Good weekend!
Enjoy silksong! Hope things calm down soon!
Thanks! They should calm down mid-way through next year, so there’s a light at the end of that tunnel.
Spring has sprung where I live after a wet, cold winter, at the exact moment I have two weeks off work. My mental health has consequently skyrocketed lol. That’s really all it takes in a lot of ways. Went on a 4 hour hike the other day, sat in some pleasantly cool grottos:
Looks beautiful!
Not gonna lie, my life fucking sucks right now. Wife wants a divorce. I’m technically homeless until end of October. I do have a place I am able to stay but like I don’t have an address or anything. During the last 3 or so weeks, she’s turned into this person I don’t even recognize anymore. We’ve been together 15 years.
My therapist fired me.
I think I officially have a drinking problem but idk if I want to fix that right now.
PSL chapter is getting put on hold but we are hopeful for 2026.
I haven’t smoked in a month and the guy at work keeps forgetting to bring his edibles for me.
I went on a mini date last night but I don’t think we are compatible at all and a big takeaway from it was that I don’t think I am ready for anything and even if I was idk what I want. We are still talking though(actually right now) but she’s been through hell and back and has a whole pile of mental illnesses and I don’t think I’m the one for her.
Which led me to realize that in every relationship I’ve been in, I’ve been the problem. Still processing this.
Last night while we were walking around after eating, my soon-to-be ex called because my kids wanted to show me their new legos. This sent me spiraling last night after I got back and I proceeded to straight up chug beer for 2 hours straight. Today I had an extremely violent meltdown at work to the point of going nonverbal. It lasted 10 hours.
Anyway I’m drunk rn and very much not ok.
Inbox is always open if you wanna chat. Hope you find peace
I appreciate that a few people on this site has offered to open dms up for me. I don’t have a lot of IRL friends but I’m developing a ragtag support system over the last few weeks. I might reach out to y’all if I need someone to talk to and my system isn’t available.
I went on a mini date last night but I don’t think we are compatible at all and a big takeaway from it was that I don’t think I am ready for anything and even if I was idk what I want.
I think this is a good sign that your mental health is way better than you think it is.
I think aspects of my mental health are in different stages. I’ve been cheated on and/or hurt severely by all my past partners and one take away that I’m getting from the divorce is that I don’t just want a partner that is compatible with me, I want to be compatible with them. You sort of fall in love with the pain but I don’t want them to experience that if they don’t have to.
