I know my comment here is 4 days late, but since you haven’t had a single comment from a transmasc person (that I’ve seen), I figured maybe you’d like to hear from one of us.

All of your feelings about being a guy (why would anyone want that? Do most men really not want to be women? Maybe if I just double down on acting like a man I’ll feel like one), all of those feelings I’ve had in reverse. It never made sense to me that women were happy as women, I really thought they were lying about it. I thought if only I could “perform girl” better maybe I’d actually feel like one, surely the women who are super femme are doing it just to feel more like women, right? And if I could just do the same, maybe I’d have their poise and confidence in my feminity.

Well, no. Of course not. I’m trans. I’m not a woman, and pretending to be one sucked so fucking bad. I crave a (slightly) more masculine presentation than I ever allowed myself when I thought I was a woman. And I feel so much more comfortable with myself now! I feel like I can actually be a human, actually be myself, now that I’m no longer working so very hard to pretend to be a woman.

I can’t tell you you’re a woman, you have to decide that for yourself, but I can tell you that there are people who would never in a million years choose to be women. There are lots of humans on earth who would be (and, for some of us, have been) deeply, deeply unhappy living as women.