Ya’ll forgive me If this sounds too fucking weird.

But I don’t feel like I got anything to offer friendship or dating wise. Like I feel too boring in a way. As in I got a bit too little and niche interests. Only big one I got right now is art and animation. I play video games a bit rarely, mostly just Luanti’s Mineclonia when I feel like It. Used to collect bootleg video game cartridges too. Also Marxism kind of being kind of a big part of me now since I read a good chunk of theory. Which ofc turns people off so I don’t even bother mentioning It. Though I can nerd out about Sonic and Transformers lore lol.

Not sure If any of this shit makes sense I just kind of feel bad for not trying too hard to socialize and yet feeling lonely again because of my own dumbass. I’m too anxious and scared to go to parties, raves or concerts in general. It’s just all too overwhelming for me. Not to mention that I hate beer because of It’s taste which makes me kind of a prude + I don’t want to do any drugs due to my history of shit health (though I’m ok now). Hell I don’t even talk a ton, I’m pretty timid and quiet irl. Mostly just listening to people. I feel pretty alien around other people.

Idk I just feel frustrated I guess because of my shit decisions making me feel lonely in the long run. I do have one irl friend though who reaches out to me which is good and very cool of them. So at least something.

  • juniper [none/use name]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    4 hours ago

    Mostly just listening to people. I feel pretty alien around other people.

    Same here comrade. If I were you I’d start by reaching out to the friend that usually contacts you to hang out. I think they’d appreciate you showing interest in hanging out with them. Baby steps Care-Comrade

    Used to collect bootleg video game cartridges too.

    Also this is cool. I don’t collect them myself but I find bootlegs fascinating (their production, distribution, and the games themselves)

    • cerealkiller [he/him, comrade/them]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
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      2 hours ago

      Same here comrade. If I were you I’d start by reaching out to the friend that usually contacts you to hang out. I think they’d appreciate you showing interest in hanging out with them. Baby steps

      Thank you so much! I do get out to hang out once or twice a month. Since I’m going to college atm and all.

      Also this is cool. I don’t collect them myself but I find bootlegs fascinating (their production, distribution, and the games themselves)

      I think they’re neat and funny lol. I got like 50 of 'em, 25 being from my elder cousins. I don’t buy as much anymore because It’s the same games on newer overpriced carts. If I can get my hands on the required hardware I’d make a custom one.