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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    5·
    12 days ago

    HELLO THIS IS THE MEGA SIGN UP POST/LIST POST

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  • TerminalEncounter [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    7·
    7 days ago

    * rubs lamp *
    “hello I am the genie of the lamp, you get one wish.”

    “Ahem okay, I wish all wish granting entities were erased and never existed in all timelines possible no exceptions.”

    “Oh uh… uh… okay… well, are you sure? Are you sure?”

    “Yeah hit me with the tragic twist or whatever but Im standing by it.”

  • XiaCobolt [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    7·
    7 days ago
    Ups and downs of being trans in Australia the last 24hrs CW some CW misgendering/discussion of dysphoria etc

    I was at my local bottle-O (liquor store) last night getting some white wine for my risotto. The manager, who is a gruff gen x-er and I kind of assumed would be baseline mildly transphobic, asked me if I was okay because I wasn’t my “usual bubbly self” which is nice that it’s what this person thinks I am, the bubbly lady who always chats when I come in. I was feeling pretty flat. Equally a lady at bakery I go to regularly said it was nice to see me.

    I was interacting with 2 cis women and a cis man at a social thing, I felt very included when, after the cis man declared he was going to do something his wife asked him not to and then beg forgiveness, the three of us ladies sort of side-eyed, groaned and tutted at this prospect.

    Also the man is going bald, one of the ladies gave some head shaving advice she had from her bald husband. She turned looked at me and said something like “well you’ll never go bald!” and it was really funny. A lot of cis people who are trying to be inclusive basically don’t ever bring up that you’re trans, which is fine, but I do have different lived experiences and this was funny in the sort of joke a trans person would make about being trans. She followed it up by telling me my hair was “stunning” and she was envious.

    Then I got my blood test to get my estrogen levels checked and I saw another friend who is a cis woman with premature menopause, so we chatted and while it didn’t come up I assume she was getting her levels checked too

    Really crashing swerve into dysphoria because I’ve applied for a new job, I sent a CV in and it said I was female. The manager called me just now and was really keen to recruit me. They said something like “we need another male”, and I can only assume it was based on my voice and they hadn’t read the gender part on my CV. So I had to explain I was a “trans woman” but you know that I didn’t particularly want to work in women’s health because of the political climate and personal reasons.

    I still think they’ll hire me given my experience and the demand. But it really sucked, my voice has been getting better and I didn’t anticipate that moment of awkwardness (I kind of assumed either they’d realize and be polite or get a mild surprise at the face to face). And now I’m wondering if this is a sincere mistake or if I’m going to have problems.

  • sodium_nitride [she/her, any]@hexbear.netEnglish
    5·
    6 days ago

    All the self confidence I built up the past few days vanished into thin air because right now I am yearning and lonely. How wonderful. Even if I make mental progress it can all go crashing down so quickly.

  • inTheShadowOf [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    4·
    6 days ago

    Interesting that I still find girl to be the most validating label, woman to be a good label, and lady to be a label of ick. Maybe the latter just feels dated to me? Maybe I still see it as a term for someone older than me? I honestly don’t know why lol.

    This is only a personal thing, though.

  • BountifulEggnog [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    3·
    7 days ago
    negativity, dysphoria, transphobia, suicide

    back to bitterly hating my life

    this so much. Being trans is horrible. Dysphoric. Transphobia. Either would be horrible enough of their own. FML

    Its life ruining. I hate being trans. I’m so dysphoric about so many things. Body. Voice. Social. How I act. Everything is wrong.

    Transphobia is obviously FUCKING AWFUL now a days. And its so insidious too. Its everywhere and everyone.

    I hate it, I hate it so much, my feelings on it have not gotten better.

    Its just awful. There is nothing good about this. Its just suffering. I DON’T WANT TO DO ANY OF THIS. I JUST WANT IT TO BE FUCKING OVER. FUCK

    I think the only actually redeemable thing here is in the grand scheme of things, I won’t be suffering long. Things will either get better or there won’t be more things. 1-2 years or like at most 5. I can do it. I can suffer another 5. Just have to keep suffering and hoping it changes. I have to hope life can be livable at some point.

    I don’t know. I don’t know what the point is. T already ruined me. Society. What is the point. I’m not going to be happy. Its gone. Ruined. I don’t want to be trans, I don’t want to be a woman, I want this whole nightmare of being trans to be over. Of dysphoria. Of everything. Even if I could pass (doubt it) that wouldn’t fix it. Nothing can fix this pain. I just want it over. I hate this. I hate everything about it.

  • RION [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    27·
    11 days ago

    Talking to my dad is fun because he’ll call me something like an “industrious lad” meanwhile 20 feet away is the bottle of pills I shove up my ass to make my tits bigger

  • SwitchyandWitchy [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    22·
    12 days ago

    Shout-out to all those who learn about trans people and stand up for us because for some reason you just really care about trans rights. I’ll be waiting for you with your hormones of choice when you’re ready cat-trans

  • Disaster_of_Passion [kit/kit's, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    20·
    11 days ago
    voice dysphoria, transphobia

    I have dnd tonight and it will be the first time I’ve spoken out loud since Thanksgiving when my sister told me “you sound like a man pretending to be a woman, but maybe that’s just because I know what you are” and yeah ngl I’m having a little bit of a break down. Or a lot a bit of a breakdown. If I’m being honest I don’t want to speak ever again in my life.