Getting there but oh my god can it please stop raining! Everything I need for work is soaked through and stinking.
The decaf coffee experiment continues, though I’m allowing myself a cup of black tea or yerba mate later in the day if I really need it. And I often do. I do seem to be sleeping more of the night this week, though. I decided to quit my daily full mug of espresso when I was averaging 3.5 hours. I think job stress was the real culprit, but this is a much easier lever to pull.
Still, I did manage to get everything done yesterday despite spending the whole morning at a school show, then getting stuck with the school run unexpectedly. That was probably my Christmas miracle.
OP, how about you? Hope your dad’s doing better?
It’s been pretty stressful, not gonna lie! I was visiting him every day straight after work and also dealing with random messages he’d send during the day. Ended up picking up that flu that’s going around on Friday and was totally wiped out the entire weekend, recovered enough by Monday to work (I work from home) but yesterday I was wiped again so took the day off sick. I only managed to see him on Monday but due to being ill I haven’t had chance, and the number of requests from him for me have been rising.
My dad’s still in hospital but they’ve found the infection and he’s been feeling a lot better and mentally doing better too, and he’s having physio and OT sessions to help get him back on his feet, but his mobility was so bad before hand they might wonder if he’s safe to go back home on his own.
How are you finding having decaf coffee? It’s not something I’ve really done yet, but I think I have a good handle on my coffee intake, I’ll have two cups in the morning and then switch to tea until mid-afternoon.
Ah I broke my no caffeine streak the other day. I had a task I needed to power through (which historically, caffeine has always done the job) but instead it just got me super anxious and I procrastinated on other tasks
Being an adult is fulfilling your obligations, and I’m now wondering if I’ve changed much from that anxious teenager who’d rather build a lego fort than do their homework. This year needs to END.
Ah, nevermind! Get back on that horse. I’m still getting caffeine from tea, but a lot less. I’m drinking decaf coffee in the morning, and I’m noticing I get a lot less pleasure from it. I’ll eventually be able to drop coffee altogether perhaps.
Still, I’m having just a cup of yerba mate with lunch, though it is super strong stuff. Different feel, a much steadier buzz. I might try to go with just black tomorrow all the same.
May you find the even rounded buzz you were looking for!
Stressed the fuck out at work. I feel like I’m fucking up, all the time.
I heard that. Is it challenging stuff, or are you just not at your best lately?
I used to feel that way a lot, and it took someone with an outside perspective to realise that I was being shouldered with too much and zero training or support to get me to a better place.
Cheers mate.
Objectively I know I’m doing alright, but there are so many spinning plates at the moment and everyone else is just as stressed, nothing is getting done and its falling on me
Ah, gotcha. I know how that one feels too, from a past job. All the little victories of a hard day’s work start to feel hollow when they don’t feel like they’re adding up.
Careful how you treat yourself, the burnout can be insidious. I didn’t feel better until I got another job ultimately, but hopefully your situation is brighter - and this is all temporary.
I’ve got a few deadlines creeping up, so I thought I’d do some work over the weekend - and I’m happier for it.
I forgot what it’s like to work on the weekend, just doing stuff at your own pace, no stress, no new messages derailing you to prioritize something, just taking the time to do the task properly.
And once you’re done you can just enjoy the rest of the weekend, guilt-free.
I used to do this a lot in my last job where my hours weren’t micromanaged, but stopped in my current job where they’re really tight on hours and forgot that I liked going to work on the weekend.
Whipped, I know
I wouldn’t mind getting things done on my weekends since I’m paid based on my billable time, but my kid needs me too much for it to be a regular occurrence. Different kind of whipped, really.
I have the feeling you’re more efficient with your time though. I remember back when I was with my ex, I was super focused at work because I knew I wouldn’t have time later.
Now? I stretch out all my tasks across the whole waking period
Maybe? My productivity is highly elastic. Yesterday I got 8 hours’ worth done in 3, and today I spent 8 hours getting 3 done, but today I laid down a brutal fusillade of emails that looked like I was busy as fuck.
I’m not efficient by choice. I have to finish fast, because if I don’t I have to work in the nighttime which makes me into, as Carl Panzram put it, “a bit of a grouch”.
Carl Panzram
Huh, now that’s a… that’s a name I’ve not heard in a while, or perhaps ever. TIL hahahaha
I like weird tragedies. #relatable
Not bad, thanks. I managed to clean my study this weekend. Dust is gone, desk surface can be seen again, and the computer screen is once again clean.
How’s your week been?
