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While I am disheartened that it’s come back and I have to deal with this again, I am already totally resigned to life being unjust and an endless series of problems to deal with. I just hope the appointment isn’t too far in the future as it’ll get worse by then, and they can only use a certain amount of local anaesthetic at once. If I have to wait months and it spreads I might need multiple surgeries again because of this. I’m really just anxious about the finances involved, having to get the money for the initial supplies, maybe needing more afterwards for further surgery or more post-surgical supplies like more bandages and iodine. And also whether this will adversely affect my future mutual aid posts, I was planning on making a food aid request at the end of the month, making this surgical supplies post might make people sick of me, or if someone helps with the surgery supplies I might then get less help with the food aid because they’ve already used up their donation budget, etc.
I feel you. This is so fucked, especially given that this isn’t the first time with the foot infection, urgh. Let’s hope you don’t have to wait so long. Does the infection limit your ability to walk again?
And yes, of course it’s unjust, but to be honest, I feel like if I resign myself to accepting this, I’m killing a part of myself. I understand why you do it, love, but I’d rather be angry and upset than resigned. I believe you can get through this, because I know you’ve survived so much already.