IngeniousRocks (They/She)

Frustrating.

The rate at which I absorb information is disgusting. Yes please finish your sentence I already have a response why are you taking so long. How did I learn that? I picked up the manual and did it. Developing new skills? Learning Rust right now and its going well, failed out of highschool because I learned too easily and didn’t need the homework to learn (so it didn’t get done).

It comes with imposter syndrome: I knew the problem, I had the pattern figured out, why did I still fuck everything up (plot twist I probably didn’t).

It comes with a superiority complex: I learned this in 10 minutes from looking at a Sci Journal, why has it been hours and yallvstill don’t get it? 🙄

It comes with accidentally hurting people: frequently I say things thinking something hould be obvious when it is not, while unintended, it often hurts my partner who is usually in the line of fire when I let some dumb shit outta my mouth and insult someone’s intelligence.

Anyway I hate it I’d rather be dumbsauce ignorance is bliss

Seconding this, I also keep my AI models locked up in docker.

When I was a child I had my whole life planned out up til about 27 when everything got fuzzy looking forward.

Most of those plans were Derailed when I was 19, I had a meltdown in a situation where I lacked the support I needed to handle myself. Less than a month later I lived almost 2k Miles from my hometown.

Today, at 28, I have only the vaguest plans for my future, with no clear timelines.

I want to sell my art, I want SRS, I wanna marry my fiancé. Most of all though, and this is the big SUPER important one. I NEED to have a piece of art in the museum of Modern Art in my hometown specifically as a “fuck you I told you I could be an artist” to my mother.