The biggest pill was that I am not intelligent. I was just studious and invested enough time to pass exams. People not doing what they should do is not them being stupid but me not grasping the full picture.

The second biggest pill that I am still swallowing is that I am not a good person. I try to behave in a good way, but it’s manipulative and not authentic. People don’t like goodness if it doesn’t come from the heart.

Capitalism is also a symptom, a symptom of an intellligence and knowledge imbalance.

People need to be informed and organized to prevent being abused. If they are, they can run a socialist or communist country, or tax their oligarchs without being scammed into losing power.

Some people, e.g. ML, know how to defeat the oligarchs. The majority is not willing to learn and implement it. Even if there has been a revolution, the majority most likely will not stay sharp to prevent a decline.

If the oligarchs are willling to transition into another form of society, they don’t have anything that could take over.

Totally. Only that I postponed the thing I had to do for even longer.

Your post made me realize that I postpone because I am afraid of hyperfixating. When I hyperfixate I do things that I don’t want to be do, but that have to be done to make them right.

Like I expected, when I finally did what I had to do, I found something that was not right, and spent some additional time on it without being able to let go.

Here is an older thought about it: Could it be that ADHD is an identity thing? Essentially like transsexual but for being and not sex. Hyperfocussing is like wearing a mask, not out of fear of social reactions but from the inability of maintaining my identity. I lost my day by being afraid of experiencing being-dysphoria. It only ends when the fear of the consequences of inaction are bigger than the fears of dysphoria.