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I have my first therapy appointment with this person tomorrow. I tried to communicate in subtle and indirect ways that I kinda think about dying all the time. The problem is, if they don’t get it, then I may struggle to communicate what I need, but if they do get it, I fear a hospital trip in my near future, and I don’t know if I can handle another hospitalization…
what has worked for me is telling them you don’t have any actual plans to do anything
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example:
Q: Do you ever feel like harming yourself or want to die?
A: sometimes I just wish I didn’t exist, but I know that would hurt the people who care about me, so I just <take a nap, do a chore, etc> to distract myself, and keep telling myself this feeling is temporary, and that usually works
and if you need help with the distraction part, then maybe try telling them that? like:
A: sometimes I just wish I didn’t exist, but I know that would hurt the people who care about me, so I just <take a nap, do a chore, etc> to distract myself, and keep telling myself this feeling is temporary, and that sometimes works but it’s a struggle, and I wish I had some medication that I could take when I feel like that to help quiet things so I could get my head on straight and remember how much I have to live for
you are so courageous for even trying
I believe in you.
Thank you for the support and advice! I’ve usually done similar, indicating I don’t a plan, and it works. Just when I meet a new person I get nervous.
Well, I’ve not been hospitalized, so that’s a good deal.
I don’t know about your local jurisdiction, but as far as I know they only hospitalise if there’s active ideation and even then it’s on the discretion of the care provider. If you make it clear that it’s passive ideation they have no reason to hospitalise you.
This is usually true, but there was at least one occasion where I went to the “mental health urgent care” because one of my meds was making me severely dehydrated. They referred me to the emergency room, saying they would call ahead and sent a note with me to explain what’s going on. When I got to the ER, they put me in one of the psych rooms and were preparing to send me to the local psych ward. I ended up getting my mom involved and both of us had to fight to keep me from going there and to get them to take my trouble seriously. I agree that most of the time they would only hospitalize for active ideation, but sometimes doctors suck.