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  • PartysPuppyGirl [pup/pup's, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    18·
    15 days ago

    catgirl-flop if this is too much tell me and I’ll delete it, or mods just delete it. Know it doesn’t bode well that I’m venting here instead of getting help IRL, and yet here I am.

    SI, past suicide attempt, heavy depressing shit

    Realizing I only ever come to this site at my lowest with my no social support. Like I made this account to get advice about how to talk to friends about me trying to overdose the day before. Petty bourgeois parents won’t do shit to help, they hold my livelihood in their hands. If they decide to stop paying for my housing and insurance I’m fucked, too mentally fucked to hold a job, and even more fucked up without my depression meds that barley help. Just feels like I’ve wasted my life. Have had opportunities I never deserved given to me, and yet I couldnt handle a light course load in college, and amshattered mentally where I can barley stay alive mentally even with having my bills paid off. And even more fun, day after I tried to kill myself, parents randomly fly in and invite themselves to my days acting happy to see me and seemingly unaware of the tightrope I have to walk to make sure they think I’m happy and not depressed, instead of finding out my reality of deep depression and then cutting me off. Just don’t know what to do anymore

    • lilypad [it/its, pup/pup's]@hexbear.netEnglish
      12·
      15 days ago

      spoiler

      That tightrope walk is so hard… I hope theres some respite for you soon, even if its just some icecream and cuddling a plushie. Im sorry i have no advice (if i did i would be taking it doggirl-cry) but, well, youre heard and like i know what its like and it sucks. I keep applying for jobs but even if i get hired ill probably lose it to another mental health episode…

      Its tough out there, im glad you at least have here to vent to meow-hug

    • sodium_nitride [she/her, any]@hexbear.netEnglish
      12·
      15 days ago

      virtual hug initiated

      You don’t need to worry about your “accomplishments”. They only mean something if they bring you happiness. If not having them gives you sadness, then forget about them.

      Don’t let college become a ghost in your head that you chase after. That’s what I did and it killed parts of me. Now I can brag to employers about how exploitable I am cause I’m in debt and have no friends.

      I know many people who come to college to waste their time and party. They are the ones really wasting their life. You are instead taking care of your life, you just need more effort for it than others.