It seems like its been a fucking time for more than just me, so doing another check-in thread to see how yall are holding up. Especially since its been a LONG time since ive done one of these.
Got something you wanna vent about? Wanna share something cool? Nows the time!
Love you all 
For my own part - back from tour. The band made money, but I am broke. Fortunately, starting my first job in 2 years on Monday, and whats more, ITS FUCKING COOL! Finally out of the tech field, and working thru Americorps to help with a local anti-homelessness organization. Im gonna be doing back end stuff interfacing with other local orgs, but its still a job im happy to have and can be personally proud of rather than working with stupid bullshit SAAS stuff. Met a hexbear on tour and had a great time with them, and after 3 floods in a week, my partner and I are moved into a new apartment and finishing unpacking. This time were on the 4th floor! Nice building, no complaints, place is modern looking and very clean, it just feels surreal after everything that brought us here.
Not gonna lie, my life fucking sucks right now. Wife wants a divorce. I’m technically homeless until end of October. I do have a place I am able to stay but like I don’t have an address or anything. During the last 3 or so weeks, she’s turned into this person I don’t even recognize anymore. We’ve been together 15 years.
My therapist fired me.
I think I officially have a drinking problem but idk if I want to fix that right now.
PSL chapter is getting put on hold but we are hopeful for 2026.
I haven’t smoked in a month and the guy at work keeps forgetting to bring his edibles for me.
I went on a mini date last night but I don’t think we are compatible at all and a big takeaway from it was that I don’t think I am ready for anything and even if I was idk what I want. We are still talking though(actually right now) but she’s been through hell and back and has a whole pile of mental illnesses and I don’t think I’m the one for her.
Which led me to realize that in every relationship I’ve been in, I’ve been the problem. Still processing this.
Last night while we were walking around after eating, my soon-to-be ex called because my kids wanted to show me their new legos. This sent me spiraling last night after I got back and I proceeded to straight up chug beer for 2 hours straight. Today I had an extremely violent meltdown at work to the point of going nonverbal. It lasted 10 hours.
Anyway I’m drunk rn and very much not ok.
Inbox is always open if you wanna chat. Hope you find peace
I appreciate that a few people on this site has offered to open dms up for me. I don’t have a lot of IRL friends but I’m developing a ragtag support system over the last few weeks. I might reach out to y’all if I need someone to talk to and my system isn’t available.
I think this is a good sign that your mental health is way better than you think it is.
I think aspects of my mental health are in different stages. I’ve been cheated on and/or hurt severely by all my past partners and one take away that I’m getting from the divorce is that I don’t just want a partner that is compatible with me, I want to be compatible with them. You sort of fall in love with the pain but I don’t want them to experience that if they don’t have to.