I’ve never regretted starting testosterone but it sucks to be on it for 3 years and still having terrible acne despite great hygiene. I’m almost 21 for gods sake, I already am so insecure about looking young. At least I have professionally done tattoos so people know I’m not actually in my late teens but still frustrating.

I feel like they just won’t accept it lol

God I’m a stealth trans man whose been on T for years and had surgery in 2023 and I have tried a few times to join groups for other stealth trans men and it’s alwayyyyys just 20+ year old men complaining about how younger trans people are fake trans and how cringey people open about being trans are and shit like that. Like dude I promise you someone with neopronouns and nonbinary people aren’t your mortal enemy.

Omg I’ve watched that show so many times and didn’t even catch that it was a bobs burgers reference🤦‍♂️

Paying a $250 bill when you just lent your mom 2k and your dad 1.2k is painful.

Took a Vyvanse and got 4 essays and all my other college assignments done, going to go pay this bill and turn in my rented textbooks and then it’ll finally be good riddance.

Thank you, having so many people reply has made me feel a lot better

Anyone have advice on how to deal with shame regarding not driving?

I have horrible adhd and pretty significant damage from covid (thanks for being super unsafe and giving it to me 3 times, dad), and the combination makes me extremely inattentive, insane brain fog, can’t pay attention to all the signs, multiple mirrors, other drivers, lights, etc. that come with driving and I’ve just decided I shouldn’t drive because I don’t want other people to be harmed or have to pay money I don’t have for any damages that may happen.

However at the same time I feel like there’s so much pressure and I won’t be fully free or adult without knowing how to drive. I’m 21 and super embarrassed even though I know it’s the logical and most wise course to take. I drive to and from work but I still have to get driven everywhere else by my mom or dad (usually my mom) and it’s kind of embarrassing, especially because people react so weird when I say I don’t drive as if driving isn’t a big deal and terrifying.

I have very solid plans to move to one of the biggest cities in the US (2 hours from me) and I know I will never have to drive again but I’m still feeling a bit inferior.

Sorry to ramble, I just tried to drive in semi busy conditions again and freaked out and had 2 rude drivers behind me throw me totally off. I just can’t keep up at all. My dad had to take over lol.

Venting about adhd

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Sent $14 in case there’s a tax

Holy shit is this real 😭😭

Type shit

I just moved out and I’m already homesick. I haven’t even been here 7 hours and I already feel a sense of regret and longing to go back to my dads apartment even though it was kind of stressful and we don’t have a great relationship. I still love him and I feel so bad about taking my cat with me because he loved him. Emotions suck. Anyone have advice for dealing with moving related anxiety? Especially in the realm of homesickness and realizing you’ll never live on that space again?

This is how I feel being a stealth trans man, it’s hard to trust a majority of people to treat me and my community like people and not say unwarranted violently anti trans garbage.

Omfg why does everything need an account just let me read the damn article😭

Yeah, it really hurt cuz it was someone I thought was cool, has lesbian and gay friends. Guess people don’t care about the “t” in “lgbt”

My dad already gave me trust issues, world, I don’t need more shakes fist

It really sucks being trans cuz everyone i become an acquaintance with alwaysssss ends up saying some unwarranted, unrelated transphobic shit. Randomly calling one trans person they know an “it” when he wasn’t even the topic of conversation, just mentioned offhand, seeing someone make fun of a trans customer who wasn’t doing anything but ordered fucking food cuz it’s a restaurant, etc.

I don’t trust anyone anymore. Being stealth is a mindfuck because I’ve had so many people say shit like “yeah I don’t talk to trans people” to my fucking face.

Getting called a pedophile or a monster or a dangerous potential school shooter and seeing hate crimes in the news and shit like that isn’t great for my sanity either. I feel like I’m in hell. No one challenges it. They’re monsters but they have numbers so somehow WE get pushed out, bullied, called horrific things, blamed for shit, etc

I just don’t trust cis people anymore dawg.

(This is a genuine question, I know about Ukraine and Russia fighting right now but not much else, especially about Ukraine) what makes Ukraine the most corrupt country?

It sucks cuz I get bursts of motivation to start more intensive therapy to get over social discomfort but it’s always at like fuckin midnight and the next day I have no energy and don’t care. I want to be inside all the time and not have to do weekly CBT appointments but I also want to improve myself and stop living the same days over and over again. It’s so frustrating and I’m so so bad at doing things I don’t want to do. Uuuughhhh.

Anyways, I hope your move helps you, I’m hoping living alone will give me a stronger sense of responsibility for myself.