Ya’ll forgive me If this sounds too fucking weird.

But I don’t feel like I got anything to offer friendship or dating wise. Like I feel too boring in a way. As in I got a bit too little and niche interests. Only big one I got right now is art and animation. I play video games a bit rarely, mostly just Luanti’s Mineclonia when I feel like It. Used to collect bootleg video game cartridges too. Also Marxism kind of being kind of a big part of me now since I read a good chunk of theory. Which ofc turns people off so I don’t even bother mentioning It. Though I can nerd out about Sonic and Transformers lore lol.

Not sure If any of this shit makes sense I just kind of feel bad for not trying too hard to socialize and yet feeling lonely again because of my own dumbass. I’m too anxious and scared to go to parties, raves or concerts in general. It’s just all too overwhelming for me. Not to mention that I hate beer because of It’s taste which makes me kind of a prude + I don’t want to do any drugs due to my history of shit health (though I’m ok now). Hell I don’t even talk a ton, I’m pretty timid and quiet irl. Mostly just listening to people. I feel pretty alien around other people.

Idk I just feel frustrated I guess because of my shit decisions making me feel lonely in the long run. I do have one irl friend though who reaches out to me which is good and very cool of them. So at least something.

  • Salah [ey/em]@hexbear.netEnglish
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    13 hours ago

    Finding community is hard nowadays, but it’s so worth the struggle of finding one. You can find it in many different ways:

    • find a leftist org and become an active member
    • find a local Palestine solidarity group
    • find a local squatter house and join open events If no leftist spaces exist… :
    • join a local sports group
    • find a local game store that organizes events
    • find a local book store that organizes events Etc etc etc

    If you’re awkward at social events go to more. It takes a while to learn to be comfortable. It doesn’t matter if you’re weird, there’s always weird people at social events and if you’re nice then there will always be someone who will enjoy hanging out with you. You can go to 10 events and not really talk to anyone but at some point people will recognise you and talk with you. Try to think of the sort of event you would feel comfortable at.