I finally got around to seeing “I Saw The TV Glow”, and it definitely lived up to the hype.
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i sense you’re partially joking but you shouldn’t feel bad… it’s a representation of one person’s experience with transness which while common is far from universal. didn’t resonate with me at all either and i think it’s a pretty movie but fairly overhyped. everyone’s experience is different, you don’t need to conform to some cookie cutter trajectory of being trans to be cool and valid.
Yeah fair enough, I just saw it was overhyped, watched it and I was like “well, fuck” it wasn’t according to my expectations that I heard from other trans people. I dunno feels like I have way less in common with other trans people regarding likes and common experiences and it sucks sometimes as I cant relate
i understand that. not trying to sound cynical at all but personally i feel like a lot of that stuff gets amplified online because baby transes who have just shattered their whole perception of self feel they need some sort of pre-made coherent identity to cling to. which is valid and all but i think moving on from it at some point is desirable. way less of a pronounced phenomenon irl in my experience. being your own person is fine and good actually.
yeah I have a problem with this rn (identity crisis 24/7) XD I’m trying but it feels like I’m staring from 10th floor through a glass pane observing others and learning their behaviors through a miopic lens
solidarity comrade, i’ve been there too. i’m autistic and i relate to your analogy for sure. nothing wrong with taking bits that you think are good and beautiful from other people, that’s a lot of what the self is i think.
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yeah but i feel so stuck on a personal level, feels like I’m not going anywhere, wish I could just swap my whole identity but mmm…; at the same time I have a lot of impostor syndrome and I would like my ‘self’ to be original which bothers me a lot day to day cause I feel like an empty shell with no interests other than observing and learning from others
I struggled with identity diffusion, as well. The symptoms and anxiety have lessened as I continue with my transition, and I find myself comparing my experiences to other experience a lot less frequently.
If it helps, you’re original and authentic. It’s impossible for you not to be yourself. Everything you do is authentic to yourself because you’re doing it. Even if you’re trying to model your behaviors on other people, it was you who chose those people based on your own unique experience.
I liked the movie tbf but I feel this so much, I feel like an alien sometimes
very mood, I have a problem relating to others in general and results in me depersonalizing so hard i feel like not a human… sucks